Hardest Lesson of Life..............

Sometimes I end up asking myself..
where i am ? and where i have been..
seems as if i had a dwindling past,
cant afford to recollect from memories.
at this point of time,
from where i am standing right now,
i gazed thru de path...
tht lies ahead of me...
cant see anything apart from dust,
and unbroken silences as it fades............

where i am heading to i dunno,
where i wanna go tht too i dunno,
what has happened to me ?
still figuring it out..
even if i had the reason,
will that make any sense now?

when i luk bak i didnt felt i was alone...
then why i feel i am alone right now ?
did everyone left me ?
or whether i have left everyone?
what made me do so?
how come i came this far?
far from every relations n bindings
dunno..

is it what i dream of ?
or is it what i was hoping to be...
life seems so fascinating at times
and sometimes so hard to get off...
at times it gives u things u never asked for,
and sometimes it just turn away from you..
leaving u nowhere in midst of uncertainities
pushing u towards the wildest imaginations..
no longer i imagine anymore!!
no longer i expect anything from life!!
just waiting for a appropriate time,
to bid farewell to this unrealistic living!!!!

i knew loneliness was my only companion,
for it has no promises to be kept..
de moment u have friends around,
it crawls away quietly...
when everyone leaves,
it will knock on ur door n say.. hi... i'm bak!!!!!!

it never left me marooned,
was been with me all de time,
a frnd named loneliness who was there...
apart from my shadow n my soul...
to teach me the hardest lesson of life...
a lesson of living life all alone.....!!!!!!!!!!!